Dearest

In the past few days my life has been completely hard to deal with. I lost my grandpa on Wednesday afternoon, the only grandparent that I had left. I didn't want to go through all the details but one thing for sure is in a past few days it was very difficult to cope with this lost feeling. Grandpa and I were so close since grandma pass away in 2001. I know that he knew that I loved him but I wish he knew how much I really loved him. It's a big lost for our family especially to my mom, I never ever want to experience this kind of feeling NEVER EVER. I always tell my parents that please let me die before them because I know that I don't have that kind of strengths to watch them leave before me. I wanted to go back to Thailand, to accompany my mom but she said there's no point in going back since they are going to cremate him this Sunday.

I still remember when I called my mom on Wednesday after I got home from uni, I had tons of story to tell her about my day. I said hi to her with an extremely cheerful voice "hi mom", then mom replied "Grandpa already pass away 2 hours ago". All of the sudden I felt like vomitting and kept asking her "how come you didn't tell me earlier..huh mom how come you didn't tell me earlier". I know it was a silly thing to say at that stage but I didn't know what else to say, all I heard was mom was crying hard out and said that she has to pack up and go to grandpa's house and she will talk to me later. Up until today, everytime I think of when my mom said 'grandpa already pass away', I just get goose bump right away and to tell you the truth I hate it so much.

At least I keep telling myself that now he's with grandma and they both are watching and smiling at us from up there. He's in a good hand now, I know that he will look after my family and always guide me to do good things. I love you grandpa...

clip job

I just finished reading an article in Who magazine about this dude, Kyle MacDonald strarted off trading a paperclip and he ended up with a new house. Wicked huh! Here is the story:

Last July, Canadian blogger Kyle MacDonald, 24 decided to try to swap his way to a house online. Starting small, he posted a notice on classified site Craiglist offering a red peperclip for something bigger. Within a week, two women from Vancouver ponied up a fish-shaped pen and the trading began. MacDonald wrangled a generator for a camp stove, then a holiday in the Rockies for an old truck. Yet, things really snowballed when an afternoon with rocker Alice Cooper fetched a Kiss snow globe, which former LA Law star Corbin Bernsen snapped up in exchange for a role in the movie he is directing. That caught the attention of officials in the tiny town of Kipling, Saskatchewan, who in search of publicity offerered MacDonald the house he sought all along. In September, he and his girlfriend plan to move into their new three-bedroom digs. "It's and adventure for the both of us," he says. (Thanks Who magazine for the story)

So never underestimate the value of the paperclip,yeh! hehehe

Nice day

I've been long waited for one full day of nice weather so I can walk around in the sun (sounds pretty lame huh!). Today's weather wasn't that great but at least it was good for a walk. Sean and I went to grab a nice lunch at Art Centre market in town. I had a lamb souvalaki while Sean had chicken souvalaki. It was pretty good actually, the food and the atmosphere. We got to sit down and talked over our lunch, we were pretty much talking about nonsense stuffs but overall it was fun.

Oh I watched the movie calls Kinky booth last night which is based on the true story. I really enjoyed it. It's not much to talk about this movie, you just have to watch it really. I loved the music though and the transvertite guy is so awesome, I loved the way he acts and how he sings. I actually been watching quite a few movies in a past few weeks. For example, I fell in love with Audrey Hepburn in My fair lady (she's the second most beautiful woman in the world, the first one is my mom), Mary Poppin (gosh Julie Andrews was amazing in that film and I loved Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious song). I'm sure I watched more but I just can't remember gosh..my memory is getting worse each day. Anyway, I baked Oreo cheesecake today (I will update the recipe in my microcosmic space blog tomorrow) and had steak rice for dinner.

It's getting late and I need to wake up early tomorrow or else I won't be able to get a hold of a big print table which means I won't get my work done tomorrow. It's quite annoying really considering we have like 20 something people in Printmaking department but there's only 2 big print tables (one is kinda screwed up so nobody use it). So that's all for me for now. *Yawn* nites.

Out of the blue..

How do you value your relationship? How can you know that you put enough efforts into it or not? Who is right and who is wrong? People always say that 'time will tell', but then how long until it tells? Did I ask too much or maybe I shouldn't have opened my mouth at all.

Sarawak Laksa

Finally it's Friday which means I can wake up late and have various reasons for not doing fine art works (i.e. it's weekend, it's illegal to study during weekend) I returned home, exhausted from my day at uni. There is nothing exciting about today apart from napping and eating. Sean is cooking Laksa tomorrow, which should be good. I just can't get enough of this particular dish. Sean tried to teach me how to cook it but I just can't be bothered, and it's good that I don't know how to cook it. Therefore, if I want to eat laksa, Sean has to cook it. Also, it takes quite long to cook as you have to cook chicken stock, peeling chicken meat, fried eggs and cooking laksa sauce. No matter I like cooking, laksa would be something that I'd rather buy not cook.
What I like about this dish is probably the taste and the smell of it, mostly the lemon juice smell when you freshly squeeze it into your laksa soup. Gosh, my mouth is watery while I'm typing this out.

I pass

Thanks to all the divinities....I pass ART HISTORY. That's all I want to say today. hehehehehehhehehehehe. Oh and I did quite well in today's lab test. happy happy

3 years and a half

Last night Sean took me out to one of the nicest restaurants I've ever been, Saggio di vino. Whenever Sean and I drive to town and use Barley Avenue route, I always tell him how desperate i want to try the taste of Saggio di vino. Until last night he took me there by surprise (he probably got sick of me asking him to take me there). The food was fantastic, but the price was so expensive. I loved the atmosphere of the restaurant, services and of course the food. We ususally don't dine to these kind of posh restaurants, yet it was our 3 years and 6 months anniversary. It might sound ridiculous because ususally people celebrate yearly not every 6 months like us. Who cares, you don't know what would happen tomorrow so why not just treasure it now.

We had breads to start off, crunchy crum but soft inside and we both loved it. After that our main courses came, I had Maredo Lamb (Rack and braised Shoulder) with crisp polenta, buttered greens and gremolata while Sean had Beef Tenderloin. We also had crisp garden lettuce and tomato salad. It didn't take us long to finish our meals, at first I was going to order desert but by the the time we finished main dishes I called it quit as we were so full. No matter this restaurant is specialized in wine but we didn't sip any of those vinos but instead we had soft drinks. I think all together it cost around 95 dollars which like i've mentioned before..so expensive but compare to the quality of the food, I said it's okay.

Above: Beef Tenderloin. Below: No more food :P

We headed to a movie theatre after the dinner to get tickets for Pirates of the Carribbean Dead man's chest. Nothing much to say about this film as it's to be continued, it was quite funny I must say. Johnny Depp is born to be Captain Jack Sparrow, not much of beautiful Kiera Knightley (i don't really care about Orlando Bloom). However, a guy who was sitting next to me on the left was darn stink and he kept shaking his leg almost the entire time. If he had a Parkinson's disease, that's okay you know but i don't think he has. The movie was quite long actually, I think it was around 150 minutes. I can put up with the shaking thing but the smell....gosh... I would say that last night was pretty much of sweet and sour. After the film I was pretty hungry for some reason. Maybe all my food energy from the previous meals disappeared when I smelt that guy's odor. So we had big suppers at Denny's, it was quite a lot of people there actually considering it was quite late already.

Anyway, when I got home I realised that I had to do laundry. I hit the bed at 4 a.m and didn't wake up until 1p.m. Oh well, at least I had such a impressive night at Saggio di vino, thanks to Sean for putting up with me for 3 years and a half.

Relaxing day

I know time does fly fast but today seem to go so slow. I woke up this morning and it was so cold but at least got sunshine, good for laundary. Despite the cold weather, staying at home seem to be the best option and i actually enjoyed it. After hanging clothes, watching anime and checking my email I decided to clean up my kitchen. For me, kitchen is the most vital part of the house. I actually baked caramel peacan choc brownies while I was cleaning up the kitchen (for the recipe go to http://microcosmicspace.blogspot.com).

I know this is quite random but have you ever felt that you don't belong to where you are right now? At some point of everyone's life I think we all do feel that, but if we don't belong there then where? I've been thinking about it all day as the matter of fact. It's not like I'm trying to find the meaning of life because I believe well all have different aspects or meanings of life. For now kitchen seems to be where i belong in the house, I never realized about it until today (gosh..so slow huh). Kitchen gives me a lot of satisfactions, mentally (if you eat too much, it harms you physically...FAT). Unlike my own room, I feel lots of pressure when I'm in my room. I really don't know why it doesn't mean that I want to sleep in the kitchen or anything like that. Oh well, maybe I'm just weird. Anyway, dinner for tonight was fillet steak with peper sauce (go to my cooking blog for recipe).