I hate this part..
Final exam on last Saturday was such a long day for me with a few bruises on my right hand fingers due to writing hard out but at least it showed that my Master Degree course is now over (even though I still have several assignment to hand in) but there is no more class to attend and I can tell you that I do miss the classroom's atmosphere.
I just finished on my tourism development paper and hopefully I will get my psychology paper done soon as it's due on next Friday. I don't know why I feel so empty today, I just can't explain it. I was such an arse to Jo as well, sorry darling. I guess it's something to do with my mood swing but at least we made things up right at the end. I just can't wait for these 2 weeks to go away so I will get to go out of Thailand and see Jo in Sydney. Mom is going as well so that's the bonus because I've been wanting to take mom out of Thailand for quite sometime but haven't got round to that.
Tomorrow is going to be another boring day, was thinking of driving to Hua Hin but I just don't want to cause any worries to mom, dad and especially to Jo. I guess there are times that I want to retreat myself to somewhere quiet and just be by myself for a few hours. At the end of the day, I'm a girl who treasure her privacy the most. I can be very reasonable at times and sometimes I don't even want people to understand me. Why acting like an open book right, that's just way too boring.
At the end of the day, I just need somewhere that I can call home.. it's going to be very difficult for me to leave my family behind when I move to Sydney (once again that I have to leave my comfort zone) but this time I will be with someone that I love and this time I know that my feeling towards him is real. Our relationship is not perfect, we have our ups and downs but as long as we hold on to each other..we'll be fine.
I don't want myself or anyone that I care to end up with a feeling that they're in the relationship just for the sake of it (as I used to feel like it before). What's the point of lingering in something that you know that it's going nowhere but saying goodbye. No point in holding on to something that is so pointless because time is so precious and at the end of the day, you have to trust your instinct.
Sydney will be a new chapter for both of us and for people that we care as well. This empty feeling will go away in no time because I am loved by so many people and their loves are not wasted as I also love them to bits. Thanks mom for being there for me today, you are everything to me and I will die without you. Dad, thank you for your comfort hug, you have no idea how warmth your hug can be. Bro, thank you for your stupid comments and no matter we hardly talk we know that you're my number 1 brother. Jo, thank you for everything and how I wish I've met you earlier. The past is something that we can't undo but you have my present and my future. We will always be strong to each other and I hope that there's no such a thing as 'goodbye' in our relationship.
I just finished on my tourism development paper and hopefully I will get my psychology paper done soon as it's due on next Friday. I don't know why I feel so empty today, I just can't explain it. I was such an arse to Jo as well, sorry darling. I guess it's something to do with my mood swing but at least we made things up right at the end. I just can't wait for these 2 weeks to go away so I will get to go out of Thailand and see Jo in Sydney. Mom is going as well so that's the bonus because I've been wanting to take mom out of Thailand for quite sometime but haven't got round to that.
Tomorrow is going to be another boring day, was thinking of driving to Hua Hin but I just don't want to cause any worries to mom, dad and especially to Jo. I guess there are times that I want to retreat myself to somewhere quiet and just be by myself for a few hours. At the end of the day, I'm a girl who treasure her privacy the most. I can be very reasonable at times and sometimes I don't even want people to understand me. Why acting like an open book right, that's just way too boring.
At the end of the day, I just need somewhere that I can call home.. it's going to be very difficult for me to leave my family behind when I move to Sydney (once again that I have to leave my comfort zone) but this time I will be with someone that I love and this time I know that my feeling towards him is real. Our relationship is not perfect, we have our ups and downs but as long as we hold on to each other..we'll be fine.
I don't want myself or anyone that I care to end up with a feeling that they're in the relationship just for the sake of it (as I used to feel like it before). What's the point of lingering in something that you know that it's going nowhere but saying goodbye. No point in holding on to something that is so pointless because time is so precious and at the end of the day, you have to trust your instinct.
Sydney will be a new chapter for both of us and for people that we care as well. This empty feeling will go away in no time because I am loved by so many people and their loves are not wasted as I also love them to bits. Thanks mom for being there for me today, you are everything to me and I will die without you. Dad, thank you for your comfort hug, you have no idea how warmth your hug can be. Bro, thank you for your stupid comments and no matter we hardly talk we know that you're my number 1 brother. Jo, thank you for everything and how I wish I've met you earlier. The past is something that we can't undo but you have my present and my future. We will always be strong to each other and I hope that there's no such a thing as 'goodbye' in our relationship.
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