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Do you believe in 'love at first sight'? well... I don't. I guess it takes time before you know your exact feeling towards that person. Lust happens all the time but love doesn't come that easily. I guess it's easy to say the word 'love' but do you really feel it? I sort of doubt it. I used to say that word a lot but do I mean it.. hahahaha... I'm not even sure.

It's really hard to know your feeling especially when you're in a pool of doubt. I always wonder how can people know whether they are in love or not. My friend told me that you know you're in love when you can't get that person out of your head, you can't eat without thinking of him/her so basically you can't do anything without reminiscing of that person's face. Hmm..okay my friend got a point but don't you think that could be just a lust not love?!?

Why am I rasing this issue, well let's say that a few of my mates confessed their feelings to me and I mean it feels good to know that there are people who have a positive feeling toward you but do I want to commit myself? I guess not. One of the guys is definitely a no no. I don't even know him and most importantly he's not my type (hope i don't sound too shallow). Another guy is a friend of friends, he's a nice guy I have to give him that. However, can he handle my unstable ups and downs? don't know and better not let him try, just don't want to scare him off I suppose. I'd rather have friends more than committing myself into a relationship. It's actually really hard for the both of us as he's already revealed his intention and I already told him that nothing is going to happen. To be honest, there's a one percent of curiousity in me though (oh well you do the math).

It's such a cliche, when you try to run away from something, it comes right to you. Still, when you really want something it's too far-fetched! What a life I have...